Food phobias?

Hi all, + + - here

Has anyone else developed some food phobias along with their diagnosis? Like you're nervous to eat something thinking it will somehow affect your cancer? I was diagnosed on 10/30 and have my surgery coming up on 12/13, just trying to manage my mind and nerves in the meantime.

I know not to buy into the "sugar feeds cancer" myths and such, but I also know diet will matter especially in recovery, things like red meat not being recommended. And honestly I feel nervous eating some things. I've had similar phobias with my IBD which comes and goes. I've actually lost some weight unintentionally just because my appetite took a hit with the stress of being diagnosed.

My brother's birthday dinner is tonight and we're all going out to eat at this place that has fantastic burgers (I actually went there after my first biopsy because I was in the "fuck this BS" phase lol). I really want one and I know logically one burger won't make my tumors larger...but the fear is there, you know?