I have no words

Some of you might remember that I've been trying to get a benzo script. I had a new prescribing nurse lady last week. I told her I'm dealing with a traumatic event where I was raped continuously over 14 hours and held hostage until I was able to contact police who finally came to rescue me. She was aware I couldn't leave my house and I live alone and have no outside support. The guy was arrested but is out on bail and next week I have court and I wasn't sure if I could go but I had to because if I don't he will just get off and the case will be dropped and could she please give me something for severe anxiety. Right now I'm on 20mgs cymbalta and some gabapentin. She says well take 20mgs at night and 20mgs in the morning too. I wish I was at the Dr office in person because I would have punched her right in her fucking face.