21F and 32M.

Chinnappatinunchi nannu(21F) ma bava (32M) ki ichi pelli chedham ani fix ayyaru. Chinnappatinunchi parents maata eppudu kaadhanaledhu , so eppudu bava thoti pelli anna kooda no cheppaledhu plus thana meedha chinna crush kooda unde. Ma bava valla mother thanu chinnaga unnappude chanipoyaru and valla daddy sarigga pattinchukodu so last 8 yrs nunchi ma intlone untunnadu.

3 yrs nunchi nen and na bf best friends. 1.5 yrs back thanaki (bf ) nen ante ishtm undhi ani cheppadu, nak kooda thanante ishtm ,so accept chesanu .Oka 4 months tharvatha intlo bava ante ishtm ledhu, bava ni just bava laage chusanu,feelings levu ani cheppanu. Evaraina ishtma ani aduguthe bf gurinchi cheppanu, ventane bf ki call chesi inkokasari na kuthuri joliki raku ani bedhirincharu, tharvatha ma bava ni pilchi next year meeku pelli chestham ani chepparu.

6 months back malli intlo cheppadaaniki try chesanu, bava ni cheskonu anesi ( bf thoti inka relationship continue lone unde ) .Nv cheskokapothe suicide cheskuntam ani emotional blackmail chesaru. Entha convince cheyadaaniki try chesina kooda situation inka worse aindhi, so sapdeka unna iga.

Ma bava ki na bf gurinchi telvakapovadam correct kaadhu anipinchi, oka roju nen hostel lo unnapudu bava ki call chesi chepppanu, ninnu pelli cheskovalani ledhu, eppudu a feelings lekunde, nak vere athanu ante ishtm anesi. Appudu thanu nv ante nak 10 yrs nunchi ishtm. 10 yrs back eh nv na wife ani fix ayya. Nv itla nannu mosam chesthav ani anukole, sare nee ishtm, neek ishtm lekapothe nen em chestha ani annadu.

E vishyam next day ma parents ki telsinaka nak call chesi banda boothulu thittaru . Ainaku enduku cheppinav bf gurinchi, ippudu thanu (bava) manak dooram Avthadu, appudu nv happy ga undu ani chala thittaru. Nv e roju evng lopu vanni pelli ki convince cheyyakapothe ma shevalu chusthav ani time icharu. Bf thoti kashtanga break up cheskoni ma bava ni convince chesanu, thanani pelli cheskunta ani anesi.

Recent ga cousin marriages valla vache genetic problems gurinchi telsaka, e sub lo vati gurinchi post chesa, mana bondhas pettina answers ki bayam ayyi ma bava ni pelli cheskonu anesi fix ayyanu.

Ma parents ki ma bava ante nakanna ekkuva ishtm ( valle annaru). Last time bava ishtm ledhu ani chepthene, vaadu gantha premisthaandu ninnu, neekosam inni years vere ammai ni love cheyakunda unnadu, ippudu nv itla chesthe vaani paristhithi endhi ani annaru , plus na vallane ma family break avthadhi ani antunnaru. Thanaki (bava) already amma leru, daddy pattinchukoru, valla anna vere ammai kosam family ni odilesi poyadu, ippudu nen kooda itla chesthe baadhapadthadu , na valla okari life agam avthadhi ani badhaga undhi kani na future kooda chuskovale kadhaa ani kooda undhi.

Kani ma bava ni nen emaina mosam chesaana ani baadhaga undhi.

Bondhas, na thappu emaina unte cheppandi set cheskunta , lekapothe inkemaina suggestions ivvandi.

E post already AITK sub lo post chesa, kani manaki cousin marriages gurinchi ekkuvaga telsu kadhaa ani malli ikkada chesthunna.

TLDR : Feeling guilty over rejecting 32M cousin.