my mom does not want to work

we are a family of 4. my dad was abusive to all of us so we had to let him go and move out of the house in 2020 where my mom would be taking care of us financially.

so nenu, mom and chelli kalisi oke intlo untunnam away from my dad. dad does not support us financially.

my mom stopped working since 2018. intlo oorike godavalu, prashanthanga undali ani intlo nunchi ochesam. my dad is a narcissist. mummy always complains about how my dad did not let her work in her youth and how she hates being a housewife, how she was deprived of opportunities and how my dad looted her youth, which is true. mom worked as a journalist for a while and then lost her job.

2020 lo move out ainapati nunchi, we have our finances tight, prathi chinna daniki adjust avvalsi ostundi kani ma mummy job cheyatledu. enduku cheyatledu ani aduguthe, naa career ki openings levu anni close aipoyayi ani antundi. appudapudu okato rendo interviews attend aithadi. emaindhi ani aduguthe, nenu raase style vallaki nachadu, vallu adige laga rayadam na valla kadhu ani antadi. this has been happening since 2020 and she found a job that pays her peanuts a month which is barely enough to maintain a family of three. aa job evadu part time ki kuda cheyaru.

she has other opportunities knocking her door which are not related to writing but she doesn't want to take them up. she is proud of being able to write, kani market ki taginattu rasthada ante adi cheyadhu. also these other opportunities i talked about, they pay well enough for us to sustain ourselves.

ippudu illu ela nadusthundi ante, nenu job chesi sampadisthunna. nene rent kadthunna, nene insurance premium kadthunna, nene current bill kadthunna, nene groceries ki kadthunna, nene parlor, pedicures ki kadthunna.

i was jobless before i got this job a couple of months ago. she said "neekosame intha pedda illu teeskunnam, ippudu rent kattalekapothe ela, nenekkadnunchi thevali paisalu". oka argument lo she also said "naku intha pedha kuthuru undhi ani, emaina support chesthadi ani ninnu chusi dhairyam cheskuni baitiki ochesina"

my mom is never grateful and is always blaming me for something or the other. 2023 summer lo ac lekunda fan almost panicheyani stage lo undalsi ochindi and she didn't give a fuck so ee year ki summer kosam i got an ac, she was not okay with it. face antha adhola pettesindi, it was my first purchase ever in my life, i was really happy. it felt like an achievement. i told her already that nene emi kadtha, nene current bill kadtha. my mom being evidently sad kind of made me feel bad and brought me down. she never came into the room when the ac was running the whole summer and was always in a bad mood when i ran the ac.

i feel so done, as a child i was never given anything beyond food, water, clothing and schooling. i finally thought hammayya ippudu na life nenu chuskovochu, naku nachindi nenu konukovochu ani kani all my money is being put into my family which my mother does not seem to acknowledge. emaina ante sampadisthunnavanna balupa ani maatalu okati.

my mom, who is supposed to be working and looking out for us, is excited about wanting to make candles instead of taking up a serious job. i get that she wants to relax, kani ippudu unna paristhithi adi kadu.

she also blames my dad about how he kept her away from socializing with people. now, since we moved out, she could have socialized but she does not. rojantha intlo kurchuni reels chusukuntu, whatsapp lo sollu eskuntu kurchuntadi. no one comes home, it is very lonely for me and my sister.

the only socializing she does is go out in the weekends and be gone until sunday evening. appudappudu idha socializing ki thanu iche definition ani anpistundi.

sare, ala ani cheppi inti pani chesthada ante adi kuda ledu, deeniki reason endhi ante "pani undhi, job cheyali", "baitiki povali", idi cheyali adi cheyali. asalu food kuda sarigga undatledu intlo.

chelli ki recharge kuda nene cheyyinchali, which i don't mind but i don't like that i am being obligated to recharge her mobile plan. my mom simply doesn't change, doesn't want to take up responsibility, acts like we are a burden to her and pretends she is maintaining us with people. seems like she made up her mind to not work anymore and play victim by blaming my dad for where we are today.

i am not doing fine mentally, chala burdensome ga undhi, asalu nene motham maitain cheyalsi ostundi ani eppudu anukoledu. atleast my parents didn't give a heads up earlier, all of this is so sudden. i work because i learnt to love my job and it is the only way out for me. i feel so restless and i am not able to sleep properly.

asalu em cheyalo ardam kavatle, i am looking for advice on how to deal with this whole scene. help me out please