Can’t get off antidepressants

Does anyone else feel like they just can’t get past the withdrawal stage? I’ve been on antidepressants since I was probably around 12-13 and I’m 21 and I’ve tried unsuccessfully to get off of them around 3-4 times every few years. But I just can’t do it. I taper off how my doctor tells me to. But everytime I do and the medication starts leaving my system I get what I call very irritated and horny. I literally can’t explain why. It bothers me so much that I’ve never lasted long enough to see if these symptoms go away, I always just go back on the medication. I can’t find anything about this online either. Irritation is commonly listed but not the other part. No one I’ve spoken to has experienced this. I feel like I’m gonna be stuck on meds forever. The only explanation I can think of is that it’s my libido rushing back since the medication kills it but this still shouldn’t be as intense. Does anyone have any advice?