Ready to end it all

Ready to kill myself I've anhednona and depression for 18 years triggered by stress and a bartonella infection and then I got lyme disease and essentially I'm bed ridden anhedonic depressed with a ton of other issues I haven't worked in 6 years and was a successful barber on and off for 10 years I have finances for treatments but I feel like I'm unfixable with all these issues I'm 36 years old and if someone will take care of dog I'd just kill myself. The sad thing is I had such a great life I'm very blessed just plagued with health issues mainly caused by infections and stress