Just wanna Rant...

I'm just gonna rant to some strangers cuz I can't seem to express my feelings atp to anyone I genuinely know so yea... I honestly hate my life and hate what I'm going thru becuz of A levels. A levels has potentially ruined my mental health for good. I'm retaking all sciences becuz I cudnt get the grades I wanted for med school back in May/June session. I'm utterly destroyed. Doing the past papers all over again makes me feel worthless becuz ik I have done it before and yet here I am solving em all again. Honestly (Astagfirullah I shudnt even say this) but I have lost hope in myself. Idek how my theory papers went. I made the silliest mistakes that even the dumbest person wudnt think abt making. I had prepared so well for theory and I was fairly confident that I will do well becuz I had managed to score As at home as practice but idk what happened in that exam hall. Was it stress or anxiety? Prolly yeah and becuz of that I made very dumb mistakes and I cant stop thinking abt em. Ik I shud be focusing on my practicals and mcqs but I just cant seem to move on. The amount of times i have cried during Salah is just so..... (yknow what I mean). I'm just tired and wanna give up but then I feel bad for my parents cuz they are so supportive of me Alhamdullilah and they know I can do it while in reality, they dont even know what their own daughter is going thru. I just feel like a failure atp who has no hopes of becoming a doctor. Salah is my only source of peace when ik Allah (SWT) is listening to me and I certainly believe all my Duas are going to be accepted. But this feeling inside me is just so bad that I feel like nothing. Anywho if you reading this paragraph rn, then thank u for listening to my very weird rant lol :)