Crushing anxiety about the future

How do you cope with the crushing anxiety about the future?

I feel like all I do is worry about my future. Financially. I am doing okay and making all my bills and saving but it doesn’t feel like enough.

I have a good amount in an emergency fund and I am grateful for this. Many are living pay check to pay check and I am fortunate to know I will be okay for a little while if something were to happen to my job. I try to remind myself of this but it never relieves me of the anxiety that comes with trying to progress in this world

I feel guilty that my parents worked minimum wage jobs in the 90s and managed to buy their home. They gave us everything we wanted and needed as children even when there was financial struggle. I am supposed to be doing better than them. I am supposed to make sure they have a safety net for their retirement since it is so small and will probably not last if they do finally get to retire.

I want to pay off debt, save for a home, finish my graduate degree but it’s like I can’t have it all.

All of this comes from a deep want for stability. I just want to be happy. I want to accept I may never buy a home and retire. It is one or the other in my brain.

I know many feel this pain. I just feel as though I am failing. Failing my parents, myself and my future children who I don’t even think I could afford to take care of.

I am doing okay right now and I have a safety net. I am grateful but I feel this is where I will always be.