I don’t like your girlfriend.

I’m not proud of myself for this. But it breaks me and my heart.

At the beginning, when you told me, about everything you had with her, I was happy for you. I wished you the best and I still do. But…

But right now, something tells me I miss you. I miss all that we had. It’s been 4 years since we broke up. And now, I feel that I miss the old us. How can you be happy with her? Weren’t you happy with me? Weren’t we happier together? Didn’t we plan a future together?

I envy her. I don’t like her. You keep talking about her, because you love her, but I can’t stand it. I act like I’m okay, I act like I’m happy for you but deep down I hate her and I am so mad at you.

I know that you miss me. Do you still love me? Would you be with me if you could? I find myself praying for you to break up. I hate her. I am not proud for this. I want you to break up. Please leave her. I want you to be happy but at the same time seeing you happy without me is killing me. It’s killing me… Right now I’m so lost and I hope to find my peace soon. Till then,

love you and miss you, Your old love.