Anyone else lost a parent whilst at uni - and now scared to graduate bc your parent won’t be there?

My dad unexpectedly died suddenly and unexpectedly 5 days into freshers week - and it made uni a million times harder than it needed to be.

I’m currently on a study break for health related reasons - but due to restart my third year in September. But, part of me never wants to graduate now - because my dad won’t be there to see it.

Like I would never drop out, because I’m too scared of failure but the thought of graduating now without him.

And I just wondered if any one else felt the same? Because I’ve spoke to people who lost parents (but it was always when they were really young) , and all my friends still have both parents.

Obviously quitting uni would be the worst decision ever - and I’m not sure if this is the right sub to ask. But how do you guys manage with the stress/guilt of graduating?