A avg . Middle class guy problem

Currently i am pursuing my bsc agriculture in Rajasthan . Always want to clear this UPSC CSE glamours exam. Tbh i don't know the real depth of this exam in class 12th . When i was in 12th class i was used to idolise grand entry video and bhang bharosa and all . When i cleared my entrance exam for college i hit with reality that what is this exam is and what is syllabus. But karna tha main reason yahi tha ki In today's environment of private agriculture sector you have to sell only Fertiliser box only and other options is only Govt. Job which is now remains very few in agriculture after covid .

I started the prep in 2nd year of college. This mf college charges 90000 rs per year even it is govt . College . But the catch is that i am on payment seat after scoring 300/480 For this fee i have to work as meme creator for big pages. The memes you guys are watching in my account is paid . I got 500 rs per month for this .

Now insaan bahar ki duniya se toh ladd le lekin jab ghr par baap or maap har dusre din ladte ho vha dimag ka bhang bharosa ho jata hai and sath me sibling ho toh usko (everything is fine) ka natak krne ke lie fake smiles deni padti hai .

Rent bharo + college fees earn karo + corporate me admins logo se work pressure bhi lo + ghar ke natak suno fir ye padhai .

Pura din jab phone me content bnate hue waste ho jata hai toh raat me sote vkt regret hota hai ki kya kr rha hu . Lekin tab fees ke 90k samne aajate hai.

Pata nhi ky hoga life. Or ye ameer log sb kuch hone ke baad apne soft foam sofa par bethkr bolte hai. Life is so hard 🙏💔