I found the papers from the hospital visit I had as an infant and dont know how to feel.

I grew up never really knowing much of my father as he passed when I was 5. I knew that he went to jail due to suspected child abuse to me, but later found out that he went before due to incidents with his first family. A family my mom never let me meet until I found them 2 years ago. And I only found out about the other jail stuff and abuse stuff due to my mom yelling it at me in a fight when I was 15. My mother had me grow up thinking that my dad just made a mistake, or that an accident happened and the judge was a POS of a man.

Grew up believing it and crying for so many years of a dad I could hardly remember due to him being in jail from me beinf like 6 months until I was 4. Other than a few memories before he got sick and passed. My mother never really talked about him or the incident that happened. I never knew the truth outside of a broken collar bone and something about a black eye. Different stories. My brother told me some small details of what he knew given his age. I guess I know more now.

We're getting rid of a car that she's had since I was 5. She always kept important papers in there for whatever reason. Some of these beinf the honorable discharge he had from the air force, and papers from the hospital when I was an infant. Went into more details of the black eye, bruised side of my face and broken collar bone. That my father said I somehow kicked myself in the face. But how does that explain the collar bone? How would I kick myself so hard in the face? It makes no sense. My older sister says that she thinks he didn't do anything and now I have no idea what to do or say.