I died after smoking crack

About 6 months ago I started smoking crack… terrible idea, I know. I’ve struggled with addiction since I’ve been 19 and have been addicted to Molly, fentanyl, benzos, drank for a few months… now I’ve been smoking crack. Two months ago I went to pick up. Sat down outside and started smoking. As I was taking my blast, I started getting insanely high so I kept taking a bigger hit. As I got higher, it felt like my brain was dissolving into the universe. I went into a state of altered consciousness where I could think but my brain was going through something. I could see crazy, moving psychedelic patterns. I felt as if I became “one” with the universe. I started to realize that I AM DYING and this IS 100% what death feels like. It’s extremely difficult to comprehend, let alone put into words. But I knew I was dying and I started to think about my family and how it would tear my sister apart. Somehow I end up coming back to reality and I knocked my bong over. This caused my mother to come check on me. I then ended up having a seizure.

Glad i didn’t die but still haven’t been able to kick this addiction… I need help before I end up dead for good.