Gotta talk yall (NSFW just in case)

In recent times, I've dealt with some things. Breaking up with my old bf, finding out a friendship of 7 or more years was fake, and some other small things. But recently I started cutting myself and I can't stop, I gotta stop. It's been driving me nuts ever since the friendship thing, and I've started cutting myself because of it, to take my mind off it. My blade doesn't break the skin, it just leaves minor scabs that go away after a few days. I've just been meaning to vent somewhere, but my friends aren't on rn and I don't really know where else I can waffle about stuff ;-; anyway, I want music recommendations from yall. Or yall can ask me for music recommendations.