I hate being Autistic

Every autistic person I see online has a high IQ, is successful, attractive, I am none of those things, I unfortunately have low quality autism. Seeing other neurodivergent people with high IQ’s makes me bitter, angry, depressed, and suicidal, I hate being a dysgenic loser, if eugenics was still practised I wouldn’t have to suffer. It sucks not being equal to the high performing autistic people, and having less value than them.