I'm a failure in every aspect.i will eventually off myself.

i'm 30 years old , poor, homeless, a virgin,. I've always been impoverished. Living off of governmental financial assistance. most of my life. I've been deprived of female attention all my life. I envy dudes who get females. i envy that they have a vehicle. I envy that they have a home. Even having an apartment is doing better than me. I sleep in the bushes with the rain dropping on me when im trying to sleep. I hate the women because they never wanted me. But they want all the other men. Why dont you share that love with me. i hate that life aint fair. shit is rigged. I got it worse than anybody on this planet. you dont know the mistreatment, the racism, the evil, the bullshit humans have done towards me. I just watch porn. fuck females. and fuck friends. why would i desire to be with a bitch anyway. they've never wanted me. i say FUCK THEM all at this point. you don't know what i've been through my entire life. the bullying throughout school. touch deprivation, love deprivation. Nobody got it worse than me. thats why i say fuck anybody who complains about their life when im reading their story on this platform or anybody that complains about their life. at least you arent an involuntary virgin. At least you are desired by the opposite sex. at least you get bitches. you got a family. you got a roof over your head., you got a career. you got a car. you got something. if you aint got all these things i listed. i know all of you at least got one of these things I've named. you got something going for you.. I DONT HAVE ANY OF THE SHIT. absolutely NOTHING goes my way and nothing ever has.. no matter how hard I try, life and humans do everything to make me suffer.