Conflicted

I have mental health issues (obviously lmfao) that aren’t only affecting me now, but are now affecting my family who I live with. I’ve been trying to do therapy and I seem to get a bit better then crash down to where I was before. I’m not only a financial burden to my dad (therapy is expensive asf) but also an emotional one. I hate feeling like this and I want to get rid of myself not only to free myself from the constant pain but free my family from how annoying I am. I don’t really know what I’m trying to gain by posting on here but I just wanted to voice how I feel.