How does one recover will to live?

Hi.

I don't really know why I am posting this, I already know which answers will I get: Go out in nature, try out a new hobbie, meet new people. However, none of these things attract me. Generic advice was never useful for me.

I have been thinking about suicide multiple times over my life. In fact, there is no particular reason. Nothing is really "wrong" with me. However, I just don't see the point. My life just comes down to wake up, go to gym, go to a work it's okay-ish, pretend that I care about work, come back home, do a few couple of misc things like cleaning, cooking, play some games and sleep. On weekends I just try to catch up with things.

I have no friends and my family lives miles away. I have 6 weeks yearly vacation that I use to go somewhere and fill up the void, but it never helps.

The thing is, if you looked at me from outside, you wouldn't see nothing particulary "wrong". Just a person that works and do normal things. But I am not enjoying it. I just pretend that I like it. Nothing excites me anymore (maybe I feel excited when a new game or update comes out, one of my main hobbies is gaming), but that's it. I'm only happy-ish 2 out of the 24 hours a day.

I don't think it's worth living like this. There should be something more right? How do I "recover" that? What can I do to feel like I should move forward?

When I consider suicide it's just because I feel that "nothing/death" is better that something that is just "meh".

Please what do you think?