My ex’s following list

Well, this is kind of a vent post because right now i am pretty sad.

I had a very very bad breakup with my ex, he was somehow what I wanted in a guy; masculine, tall, nerdy… But things in reality were very different, as he was extremely emotionally unavailable and blah blah you all know the drill.

But what shocked me the most and probably what is affecting me badly to the point my self esteem is six feet underground, is, when he blocked me on twitter (X), I clicked on his following list. And what I found destroyed me, because he follows a copious amount of trans porn models, these ‘gamer’ girls that appeal to the nerdy guys and are a little bit too annoying with the fact that they are trans (the ‘haha girl wand’ bullshit) and have their OnlyFans pinned in the bio.

I just don’t know how to swallow this, I remember a lot of times in my house when he went to the toilet and stayed there for too long. Now I realize. And I feel so… so i don’t know, everytime I think of it I hurl.

I thought he was just a cool guy, huh…