Day 1: Looking for ideas

I’ve dealt with addiction in some manner for the majority of my life. Since the age of 14-15 I have been searching for that magic pill, drink, potion, etc. I’ve just never felt good or “okay”.

I’ve overcome a nasty 10+ year IV opiate addiction in the past with the help of MAT. Pretty hardcore huh? That’s why I thought these little adderall pills would never be strong enough for me to lose control.

It’s been 2-3 years of using adderall off and on, but most recently (the past year) has been more on than off. I am the director of a large agency with multiple people working under me. I’m a mom of 5 (with 3 home with me 24/7). I’m also a graduate student working towards my masters degree. The adderall has helped me have the energy that I need to get things done and enjoy doing them.

But I’m wasting a ton of money and at age 40 I know I need to take better care of my heart (and body). I want to be successful without them, and I want to stop wasting my money. I’m just struggling really hard in letting them go and allowing my body and emotions to suffer through the withdrawal period to get me back to baseline.

Being tired is a huge trigger for me. Plus, I always have so much to do that I’m not going to have time to sleep it off. What can I use to help? I’ve tried L-tyrosine supplements in the past, and I think they helped.. but it’s been a while.

I’m looking for any type of supplement or home remedy that will make the “trip home” less miserable and allow me some energy and focus in the process.