I am going to go insane

I have posted this on Tumblr but it seems NO ONE cares! Everyone over there is so happy and I am JEALOUS of them because I just can’t be and I wish I could.

Just going to straight up say it. They cheated Solas of his beautifully complex character by turning him into a dumbed down, mindless devotee of Mythal. He has been completely flattened.

Gone is the man that made a terrible mistake millennia ago to free his people from tyranny, a mistake that cost his people everything. Nope! He actually did that for Mythal, guys! Oops!

He woke up a year before events of DAI and was horrified by what he saw. He couldn’t see the value in the modern world and most importantly, the veil was hurting and corrupting his people (spirits). He must have felt bereft, terrified, alone. But then he joined the Inquisition and even if the Inquisitor was an arse, he still grew fond of the other members (albeit reluctantly). He starts to see the courage that these people are displaying, fighting for their world, the world he created. That must have torn him a little.

But if he falls in love!? That must have left him all kinds of fucked up! His people are trapped behind the veil, wishing so desperately to join the living, so much so they get corrupted. He must tear the veil down, he has too! His people are suffering but…there is beauty in this fucked up world he created. It took him a while to see but he sees it. He’ll tell himself he doesn’t but it’s there, he knows. Esp if romanced…she is so beautiful…but no, his people! They need him!

What happened to that Solas? Instead he says he must restore the world Mythal wanted.

Right there, I think I fell out of love with him and I am straight up grieving. It’s not his fault, they obviously changed direction with him.

I could sympathise with a man struggling with such a heavy moral dilemma that was seemingly presented in DAI/Trespasser. He was damned if he did, damned if he didn’t! But they robbed him of that complexity that was so beautifully and carefully crafted.

I have loved this man for 10 years and I feel like they betrayed his character. Yes, he and Lavellan got to be together but if it had to come at the cost of his beautiful, complex, morally gray character I would have preferred he’d died in her arms…or succeeded in tearing down the veil and dying as a result. Something other than this.

And this isn’t some knee-jerk, jealous reaction to Mythal. Let them have been lovers if needs must! But don’t hinge his entire character and personality on her and make her the sole reason he wants to tear down the veil.

Fucking harsh, I know, and I’m sure my anger is colouring a lot of this and I may come to see the beautiful ending everyone else seems to have seen and loved but right now I am grieving a man I loved for 10 years and lost regardless of whether he and my Lavellan are having Fade parties for eternity. I just can’t feel happy for her because that’s not the Solas she fell in love with.