First time sober since I was 19

For context I started drinking and smoking weed when I was in college. I turned 30 this month and stopped both. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t try to relapse but now it gives me anxiety to drink, and I haven’t even tried to smoke because I’m too afraid of getting a panic attack. Now I have the task of sitting with all of the repressed emotions and anxiety I was drowning. I’m doing okay it’s just hard sometimes, and really fucking hard other times. I’m in therapy for my anxiety so I hope that over time things get better. I’m determined not to take the path of my parents.