Nindya of Guru maharaj

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh 🙏

I am a 17-year-old trying to stay committed to my Nitnem. However, I struggle a lot with distractions in my life. The most troubling part is that whenever I think about Guru Maharaj, my mind starts to disrespect my Guru, and inappropriate or abusive thoughts creep in. It feels like my words and thoughts are often out of my control.

I am trying hard to overcome my bad habits and bring my mind back to a place of purity and focus, but I find it incredibly difficult to concentrate on my Nitnem. This fills me with guilt, and I feel very disheartened. Sometimes, it feels like the purpose of my life is lost because I keep falling into this pattern of disrespecting my Guru again and again.

I am seeking guidance. Please help me understand how I can move forward on this path.

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh 🙏