60 days - awareness of inner alchemy

Hey everyone. Just sharing some of my recent observations from my journey.

Background info - I'm 30 years old. I experienced severe trauma when i was around 5 years old which lead to a 18year pornography addiction. I have been porn free for 100+ days and have a regular meditation routine now.

As each new day of retaining passes, my awareness is growing more strongly. This is apparent both inside and outside of my body. Over the last couple of weeks i've become able to notice all of the individual chakras in my system, and identify where blockages are. Due to trauma almost all of my system is clogged, and retaining is slowly helping me to clear these blockages one by one. I can hold my awareness on a blocked area, breathe into it and release energy through shaking. Negative emotions will usually follow, freeing up the blocked space.

Im also able to sense some of the meridian channels in which energy is flowing, and pressure points which allow these to drain. This has allowed me to take my body scanning meditation to a whole new level! Its simply amazing. I spent my entire life so traumatized I was trapped in my head overthinking constantly and had no awareness of my body. Its given me a new lease on life!

Thanks for reading. If anyone else has experienced this, id like to hear from you!