tw: SA

I’ve dated this guy for quite some time and I actually liked him. We weren’t official but I felt at that time that he genuinely cared about me and I felt safe around him. We do the deed once in a while, but there’s this one time when he asked for it and I said no because I was tired from studying and working all night. Woke up to him inside me and was about to finish. I balled my eyes out in front of him when I realized he didn’t use any protection and just pulled out. You can see my past posts here about the yuzpe method because I was really scared to get pregnant — worse, by someone who didn’t respect me.

Over a month after leaving him, I’m now just processing what happened because I was so busy in making sure I wasn’t pregnant.

This man is a rapist, right? I really need someone’s opinion on this but I can’t talk to my friends because I have this crippling thought that it’s also partly my fault for going to his house and sleeping on his bed.

To add a cherry on top, I got triggered again when I saw him repost the “I don’t support r*pe. I can see who skips.” on Instagram and share anti-bastos posts on Facebook. I replied to his story saying how hypocrite he is and reminded him of the what he did to me. All he replied was, “Yeah you’re right, my bad i’m sorry” showing no signs of remorse.