Does anyone dealing with SDAM + Aphantasia regret finding out?

Aphant + SDAM here. I recently downloaded reddit and delved into these two conditions that I recently found out I have. Firstly, you all are amazing and I've gotten so much inspo from reading your posts.

I just wanted to vent here a little cause I really don't know who I can talk to, that would understand. I can't help but feel sad and lonely. None of this ever occurred to me until I found names for these conditions and realized they're not normal. I'm kinda bummed now and wish I had remained blissfully ignorant, cause I was happier then. It's quite isolating cause people (namely family) either don't believe me or look at me like I'm a freak. Even many trained therapists aren't aware of it.

Close relationships are hard and I now realize why. I broke up with my bf recently and after a day or two, literally forgot he was alive. I don't think about people much unless they're in front of me, and when we're together they always have my warmth and full attention. People leave most interactions with me feeling like we're best friends. But after a while they think I'm fake because I don't remember to call or keep in touch. Ends up being hurtful to me and them.

I really enjoy immersing myself in work. I get a stimulating high from analytics that I don't get with people. I'm usually working to help companies that are "sinking ships". The dopamine from problem solving is intoxicating to me. It makes me happy, and it's rewarding, I don't even really think about the money.This is usually why I don't remember to call anyone though. I get scolded and called a workaholic, and maybe that's true, but I don't see it as a bad thing (maybe I should? IDK).

I struggle to retain details of my past personal life, upbringing, etc. My aphantasia doesn't allow me to recall images associated with some very important life events. I also have a hard time remembering the year that most events occurred. All of these things make me feel like a robot honestly. I'm sure I'll get over it and learn to cope, but I really want to get thru this stage of sadness first.

Anyway would just appreciate support. What was it like for you all when you found out? Thank you in advance.