not having anxiety,not really ruminating

more of a vent post again. i don’t really have anxiety,and i’m not ruminating like i used to. i am a bit scared that i don’t have rocd anymore…kinda like it just “went away” or something like that,i don’t really feel for him,and if i do,im scared that it’s not real. i’m afraid that i’m just attached to him and that i don’t really love him at all. yet i don’t feel as much anxiety as i used to anymore,maybe it’s like a quiet anxiety?? idk,im considering talking to a therapist about this,but since i’m not actually diagnosed with rocd i’m scared about what they are going to tell me