people who smoked weed after a psychosis that was caused by weed, how’s it going?

hey y’all, had a manic/psychotic episode back in april that was caused/worsened by weed, i’ve been clean for most of the part (had a relapse in the summer and september) and was just wondering to those who still smoke after their episode, how has it been? do you still smoke high quality bud? do you still feel the same type of high? did you get a psychotic relapse? I miss weed like i miss an old toxic ex lmaoo.