Scared to maintain

I’m F30 5’2”

So I was on a deficit and got to 121 lbs. it has been harder and harder to lose weight but I started to feel like the deficit was making it hard to have enough energy to exercise and even eating 100g protein a day was hard to hit. So I have decided to start a maintenance diet and continue weightlifting and focus on building muscle to tone up a bit.

I don’t know why I’m scared. I feel like if I stop the deficit that I will gain weight. I know that the weight will be from muscle.. it’s just in the past, I would lose weight, gain weight, lose weight.. back and forth. And I can’t get my mind out of that rut. It’s like my mind believes I’m going to gain weight now because I stopped eating less.

What can I do to stop being afraid? I’m going to push through.. I just need some motivation or good stories. Tell me about how you went from deficit to maintenance and how it went?