I don't want to get married

Hi, so I'm 23f (pakistani) and I feel disgusted with the thought of marriage. Like really, I don't want to get married (also I'm straight). I don't like the marriages nowadays, they look fake, weird and strange to me. Reddit made me hate them more. I personally don't like the idea how a person can hide so many things. A mind is a world of its own and it scares me. I mean what if I tell my husband everything but he chooses to not do the same. One can hide so much about their past and present. My mom and my younger sister hates me for saying these kinds of things and also partly think that I'm teasing them, even when I'm being genuine. But I get it, it's not their fault or anyone's, it is how it is. Since I'm 23 it's getting really scary for me. Idk what to do. All the proposals I have received are truly traumatising, including the one of my cousin. Lol

Edit: why are you guys fighting in the comments?? Relax! 😭🎀