Constant discontent with Churches

Lately I have been deeply struggling again. Not with my beliefs but with Church. With the congregation, with the teachings etc. Growing up I attended and Mennonite Protestant church. I attended soley because of my grandparents. I stopped attending when I was 12. I felt no belonging there, I was ostracized because of not being baptized at birth and my struggle with Christianity began. When I was 16 I had fully walked away from the church and Christianity, having been deeply wounded by so called Christians and feeling disconnected from God.

In the late spring/summer of 2020 my husband had the call to go back to church. He comes from a Messianic background. I began to explore Christianity again and we began attending a United Church. We attended steadily for a while but eventually fell out of it. This cycle repeated until last year when we began regularly attendeding an Anglican Church. We weren't happy with the United Church and how the pastor preached, we had no connection to the people.

At the Anglican Church we built connections, I was finally baptized and we both became involved in the church itself. Lately we have felt things are going in a direction we don't like. There's a lot of missing pieces that no one seems to care about. The sermons have just been a lot of words that mean nothing. Some things have happened between congregation members and myself that have created a great divide. I have talked with my Reverend about it said person has been a problem before, my Revenerd talked to her and it's gotten worse. I have truly never felt any sense of belonging here. I have tried and focused on God, it has helped my Faith but I'm feeling as though the Church itself and it's behavior is pushing me away from Him. Due to being autistic and mental health problems I have never felt any desire for a "community", I don't care. I'm too used to being my own support system. My husband is introverted, but not anti-social like me, he wants the community and that's why I attended church with him in the beginning. He too has been feeling the church and the congregation's behavior is pushing him away. We are both quite ready to cut ties with this church because it has just given us a great sense of discontent and disconnect.

I'm starting think attending a Church may not be the answer. There is too much human faility in it that seems to take away from God's purpose for us and Jesus's teachings.