Is A* not enough? Give me a break

So, I got an A* in oct/nov 2024 but to understand my vent, you’ll have to know why I took the exam in the first place.

18th August 2024: I, on a vacation overseas, is planted with the idea of a mock examination for Islamiyat. I had been stressed over the upcoming Pak Stuidies Islamiyat boards in May/June 2025. My mother, a school teacher too involved, suggests me, for practice, to take Islamiyat or Pak studies in Oct so I ‘get the hang of it’. I sure had been worried giving a CIE, not at all at first. I had always gotten good marks in Islamiyat( straight A*’s). My mother kept pressuring me by saying statements such as ‘tum say nahi ho payga’ in Urdu. At this time, I had also low esteem due to unrelated reasons so I caved under pressure

In sep, I gave everything in studying for the exam. I gave up my social life such that I started to be bullied in school for it. My classmates saw me studying in the library writing past papers like a maniac for an exam nearly a year away.m( for them)I felt violated when students would ask me questions or make comments about me being 🤓🤓🤓. It was a low point for me and my friends also began to detach from me. No one from school like teachers said anything but they could also notice. Nonetheless, I studied my brain off and my CAIE was done and dusted in Oct 2024. However, my concordance and social life took a hit. It also put me alike back in my other academics and co cirriculars in school( I struggle to comeback but I did by Nov 2024)

A day before yesterday, the O Level result came for Islamiyat and I got an A. My mother was very happy but even in my moment of happiness, she couldn’t bare to see joy. She reminded me that I had Pak Studies in April 2025 and I couldn’t rest for a single day. I was expected to start studying. It made me mad and the moment was ruined for me. My first ever CAIE Result and an achievement for me was ruined. I know I have a Pak studies exam and I have made a schedule. If I can do Islamiyat in 1 month, I can definitely do Pak Studies in April as well. The next day(yeatrfay) my mother confronted me while I was relaxing on my room saying that I only had one A and it didn’t matter anyway since I also have my Pak Studies this year. She recommended me to sign up for two, three other subjects like Commerce, Business and sociology becuse they are ‘Easy and useless’ so I should max my A* do I can be like those over achieving students who say ‘I have 14,15…. A*’s’, like damn, who actually cares

My hard work was thrown in the dumpsters becuse other students have done better and that one A*( which I did privately while managing school) in Islamiyat is nothing much to be proud of. She actually said that! She said that it is good but nothing exceptional to be proud of. Alit of you may not relate with me but I am frustrated by this toxic encrusted around me. It is hard to explain it but I hope atleast one person on this redit comprehends my experience.

P S. sorry for any spelling mistakes. My auto text sucks