Pinsan kong papansin
Gusto ko lang maglabas ng galit dito kasi nabibwisit ako sa pinsang kong doktor na nakikitira sa bahay namin na feeling niya antaas taas niya kaysa sa akin.
A little background lang, before i went into college kasi pinakiusapan ako ng mama ko to get into medicine at magdoktor pero i really couldnt visualize myself as one. Tapos itong pinsan kong epal, balak mag architecture pero nagdecide na magmedicine instead. Sinabihan niya pa ako before na “Please wag ka na magmedicine”, pero I didnt pay attention to what she said to me because sino nga ba siya para piliin yung tatahakin ko sa buhay ko. Tapos yung mama ko after na malaman na ayaw kong mag-med yung pinsan ko yung stinart niyang pakiusapan mag med. Kaya lumaki ata siguro ulo niya.
Fast forward to present day, I have already graduated my architecture course na matagal ko na talagang ginusto and I could say na I am very much happy with it. Right now I am an architectural apprentice while my cousin is about to take her board exam sa february para maging ganap na MD. Yung mom ko todo yung pagkaproud sa pinsan ko kasi nga malapit na maging ganap na doktor meanwhile ako parang walang pale saken yung sarili kong nanay. I graduated with honors and nanalo pa ng competitions pero parang bale wala lang sa kanya kasi nga hindi naman ako grumaduate ng medicine at architecture yung napili ko.
Every time na may car rides kami kasama yung pinsan ko she would tell stories to my mom how hard medicine was and todo yung pakikinig naman ng nanay ko. It feels like wala na talagang pake yung nanay ko sa aken. Then one time, sinabihan ako ng pinsan ko na “buti nalang at hindi ka nagtuloy ng medicine, kasi for sure hindi mo kakayanin”, I just ignored her but it really got to me because girl why are you so attention starved??? She even would always brag na siya lang yung doktor sa buong pamilya namin tapos yayaman daw siya ganon HAHAHAHAH. Pero you know what, di porket nakagraduate siya ng medicine eh she has all the right in the world to look down on me and my other cousins na iibang course yung naitapos. Masyadong god complex tong si ate mo.