Just wanted to scream.

Idk from where to start, but I am just tired of everything right now. I wanna live a life, i wanna do everything, i just want to live a simple life. Why everything in life has to be so complicated? Why do we have to do something that we don't like? I just don't feel loved even though I am surrounded by my people who loves me, who cares for me, who are kind to me, but still i feel lonely all the time. I feel like i have no one. I've started learning life a little too early and taken all the responsibility so so so early!! That now everyone is dependent on me, my whole life is dependent on me, I can't with all the shits that is going on. I just want to sit at home, do nothing and enjoy my life in a peace. But these overthinkings,guilt, anxieties are just drowning me in depth of emotions. I feel like crying bcoz i understand life a little too much. I just want to be carefree which is obviously not possible. It's 7.03 pm and I am going home via local train and these cool breeze are so fresh that i feel like sleeping a bit but then again i have so much to do at home which makes me anxious. These has been going on loop from so many months. I was not like this, I was never like this but hey i guess it's life? isn't it? We have to be patience? I know all the answers but i just... I just ... Someday even I want to be quiet in someone's arm to hug, to tell all about it but hey not gonna happen.

Idk why am I even writing here !! Please don't dm me. I just wanted to vent! Thank you.