It’s been 2 months and it’s getting easier

I know that healing isn’t linear but is there a normal amount of time for a trauma bond to break?

We were together a year and a half and she took my first everything so i’m sure that’s not helping but it still feels like I just left her alone like how she told me everyone else did to her basically. I know that’s just how they work but it gets difficult some days feeling like I abandoned her even when I got treated like shit constantly.

Does the trauma bond go away for most people or do you just start to accept it for how it is. I’ve never really healed before from anything this traumatic and definitely not a trauma bond and i’m a little lost.

I’ve quit smoking, drinking, and now vaping today but I still can’t really find a purpose anymore besides work. I’ve tried to improve my diet and soon getting a gym membership. I was dumb and in love and she was my whole life because I felt like I had to be there 24/7 and I think i’m still coping from that a little too.