Quitting for mental health?

Hi all. I don’t know if anyone else has been in this type of situation but I’m so unhappy and can’t take it any longer! I think I’m ultimately burnt out in this career and need to make some changes in my life. I feel guilty because this job should be easy. Great pay, amazing hours, parents aren’t super demanding or crazy…but I’m super unfulfilled.

I met this family through a sketch agency and the job description said one year commitment, but I never signed a contract or anything. I’ve been with them for almost 6 months now and as horrible as this sounds…I have not connected with NK and I actually dread going to work every day. The parents are very wealthy and successful business owners so I feel extremely guilty even thinking about quitting because I know it will put them in a not so great spot. Giving them notice sounds awful because the thought of seeing them every day after telling them I’m leaving and letting them down gives me painful anxiety. I have thoughts of throwing myself in front of a car or faking my death just so I don’t have to quit. I feel like such an idiot that I can’t make this job work and I know you’re the only people who understand just how hard this job can be.

Has anyone else quit unexpectedly? It will absolutely be out of the blue if I end up doing it because there’s been no warning sign that I’m extremely unhappy and absolutely hate my job. And what are you supposed to say??? Hey I am so depressed taking care of your child? They honestly deserve better. But so do I!