This semester is my loneliest ever and I hate it

Never thought I would be one of the people making these kinds of posts, but I really cannot take it anymore. I need somewhere to release my frustrations.

I don't understand what I'm doing wrong. I've been trying to reach out to my various friends in NTU for awhile now but it seems like everything just dies out. Even my messages asking if we could have a meal to catch-up with each other go ignored. To make matters worse, only one of my mods this sem has mutual friends in it, so for most classes I have to deal with unresponsive groupmates or friend cliques that are described in the paragraph below (for reference, I'm in yr 3 sem 2 rn).

I understand that my friends are also all busy with assignments and midterms at the moment, so there's that, but the issue is compounded even further by the groupmates I get in the other 4 mods I'm in (that do not have any mutual friends). All of them are just so quiet, and barely say anything during group discussions. They all just keep to themselves even when I make the effort to start the conversation. At least half of them don't even bother acknowledging me when I say a simple hello when entering the class. Then there are those who just chat among themselves, EVEN DURING GROUP DISCUSSIONS, because they are mutual friends who already knew each other outside of class, and I'm just the only guy left excluded. I kid you not, I have opened a conversation multiple times with these types of people I just mentioned, and at most a total of like THREE SENTENCES will be said and that's it, they just immediately go back to discussing the topic among themselves only. Fk me honestly.

I feel so awfully lonely right now. It's not like I don't make the effort to make friends. Those who know me well will even know me as an extremely outspoken person, especially in groupwork and presentations, but I'm just running dry. I even make the effort to dress more nicely (so I don't just blend in even more into the stereotype of guys who only wear shirts and shorts) and nothing works. I make sure I always dress neatly and groom myself nicely, because that also affects how approachable I am. I make genuine efforts to try and connect, made even more difficult by the fact that I am the quiet type (with past trauma from bullying), but no one responds in kind.

I'm just so tired, so frustrated, in an almost indescribable way. I want to cry. I thought I would finally get the chance to have some quality interactions with my friends and make more new friends after a horrible semester-long internship last semester (I'm literally going to a government agency this coming Monday for a scheduled mediation session because the company STILL HAS NOT PAID ME PROPERLY) but clearly that has not been how things are going. I have not seen any of my friends since, like, August 2023???

I'm just sad right now. I wish this computer that I am typing on right now was a person I can talk to. I'm dying inside.