Struggling

I’m a guy who has been on and off trying to get married for a bit. For various reasons it hasn’t worked out. There was a girl I really liked many months ago and things ended suddenly. It wasn’t the first time I’ve had a difficult situation but since then I haven’t managed well. I’ve had periods where I’ve been waiting, but most of the time I’ve been turning to other women to distract me, which in turn makes me feel sick when the “high” comes down. I don’t know why my iman has dropped so low because of this. Im still doing my prayers and everything etc, but my khoshoo is low and honestly so is my sabr and tawakul. I’m just venting. Please make dua for me to break this cycle and return to Allah