I fear Zina

Allah has protected me from falling into zina and masturbating for now. He has granted me enough self control to not fall into temptation and He has made me not have any opportunities to commit the sin. But I fear that due to my excessive and high desires and attraction to women, I will become more desperate later on and when I am in a position to have these opportunities, I fear that desperation will cause me to seek the sin and fall into it.

I used to say I can easily remain celibate and single for life and that I don't fear zina. But the reality is I'm a weak human and prone to falling into sin, especially a sin towards which any human has a natural inclination due to biology. I will ask Allah to protect me from it but my desperation is growing day by day.

All of this is just because I'm prevented and not allowed by Muslims and Salafis from marrying the women I want, tabarruj non-hijabi immodest and less pious women. All of this just because I'll be labelled as a dayooth and weak man by other Muslims and Salafis.

I am not that knowledgeable but logically marrying even a non-hijabi immodest woman should technically be better than committing one of the major sins, but i guess both are worse.