Serious question about THC use and sparring (not encouraging use to anybody)

I am not encouraging THC use to anybody. I am only speaking of my own experience in life to which I would like to hear other regular THC users opinions.

I notice I am much more focused and steady when I have a small amount of THC in my system before practice/sparring.

I think it boils down to the fact that it makes discomfort and fear much more enjoyable in a sense, which makes me much more calm and aware of punches and kicks coming. Like I don’t get that racing vision feeling where I’m constantly paranoid of the opponents next movement or attack.

As someone who grew up in competitive sports, military service—physical contact has never been an issue—but because I did not grow up doing combat sports, I just find it mentally difficult to strike people in the face and simulate hurting another person, in general.

Obviously I’m new to Muay Thai, been at it for several months, and I’m making progress and taking it seriously.

But I guess I’m just a very civilized person deep down and I have a deep programming of not wanting to hurt people. Which I’m working hard to “overcome” to be able to switch that aggression on and off like fighters should.

So THC greatly aids me in getting over that mental block. It allows me to be much more playful and comfortable hitting people in the face and getting hit back.

I know everyone’s going to say “you should be able to switch that on without THC etc. etc.”

To which I reply: I know. that’s what I’m working on. I do some practices and sparring with, and I do some sparring practices without.

And it’s extremely clear that my performance is better with.

Does anybody else find this to be true for them? I heard there was a report done on UFC fighters about THC use, and something like more than half of them are regular users especially during practice. So I can’t be the only one who’s noticed this.

Btw you would never even know I even use THC from meeting me or interacting with me. You would actually probably think I’m straight edge or against THC use because of my appearance and demeanor unless you outright asked me. I keep my THC use very private and responsible.

Much respect to all.

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EDIT: Thanks everyone for the replies I’ve read them all and I got many different answers, can’t reply to everyone but I gave a like to almost every comment.

I use a volcano vaporizer btw which is vapor not smoke and it’s more subtle as well. And I’ll keep doing it because honestly that flow state and concentration is just an unbeatable feeling.

It seems like fighters like to use THC and almost 80% of commenters here are regular users too. Good luck everyone