Im so tired

I’ve been battling myself along with everything else since I was 10. Everyone tells you it’s gonna get better and I used to have hope but I’m 24 now and it’s worse not better. I have to take meds for the rest of my life cause bpd doesn’t go away. What is the point? Don’t have family. Have one friend and I think she has been lying to me. I’m such tired and I don’t even remember what hope feels like.