This disease is so confusing

Does anyone else experience symptoms that have a slight nuance day to day? Sometimes i feel the pressure and fullness in my ear alongside the deafness, and other days the ear is deaf but i dont feel much fullness? Sometimes when i move my head around i feel the off balance and dizziness etc.

I feel so defeated by menieres, still, after all this time living with it. I feel so out of control and disconnected from my body. It feels like I'll never have a normal life again and I am only 21.