Non duality is turning me into a sociopath?

After I've achieved something in meditation (that state of non duality) I enter a stste of absolute apathy where I indulge in extreme forms of hedonism and then later on am filled with deep regret and fear. It's like I turn into a psychopath who doesn't care if she or the people around her live or die. This started happening after I started meditating.

Like I will doom scroll tiktok and eat like absolute shit Because I suddenly don't care at all anymore? It's as though doing this shit won't affect me. It's as though the devil has possessed me!!! And then only afterwards I gain some consciousness I'm left feeling dejected and horrified.