Consumption Anxiety- Lush edition

The short version- I grew up without much of anything and definitely no luxuries. Think a 12oz bottle of bubble bath shared between a family of 8 to be used a body wash and shampoo. I’m now in a place in my life where I have a great job and can afford the things I want and need without needing to think about it.

SO WHY DO I HAVE SO MUCH FEAR AND ANXIETY ABOUT TOUCHING MY LUSH STASH? I don’t even have a lot (compared to some) but I’m so scared about running out. This theme isn’t just limited to my lush, it’s everything in my life (food, body care, money, basically anything that comes in a finite amount). That’s all, ya girl is struggling 😭😭😭