Butch vs. Trans

I geniunely have no idea what to do. I’ve always had a very distorted view on my own gender and sexuality. I came out as a lesbian a few months ago and I have a girlfriend. I think our honeymoon phase is over now and I don’t know how to feel. I’m really worried I’m actually a trans male which is bad only because I thought I had my whole self figured out. I thought and was very happy being a butch but suddenly I don’t feel connected to any labels at all (please no ‘just don’t label yourself’ comments because that’s not the point) I’m scared I only liked being a lesbian because it let me be the ‘man’ in the relationship since I was the masc one. I feel like I suddenly fell out of love with my girlfriend and myself and everything is so confusing I can’t make sense of any of it