27/MST/Pc/PS4 - Looking for a genuine long-term friend/friends to go on interesting adventures with and just enjoy life!

Howdy! Hi! Hello! Posting again looking to try and make a friend or two hopefully!

I've been trying for the longest time to reach out to people on here and usually the conversations start off great, but then they just eventually end up disappearing once an alternative communication platform gets involved. It's like there's an invisible switch that gets flipped every single time the chat moves to a different chat site and then suddenly you’re no longer interesting or worth the time. Its honestly a bit confusing but I guess it is what it is.🤷

I like to think that I am a genuinely nice person, very shy but nice. I do care a lot about people and what they do. I am open to learning new things but it might take me a few times to understand some things as I can be kind of slow and run on “braindead” energy a lot. My family and friends always say I'm quite a character and I'm apparently really silly once you get to know me, it just takes me a while to warm up to people I don’t really know but I do try to engage to the best of my ability with people i meet. I do know when to be serious when the time calls for it though so I'm not always acting like a fool/clown around everyone 24/7. I'm a very good listener but my advice might not be the greatest. I do like trying to work through problems with people however because communication is key to a thriving relationship, be it platonic or romantic. Lastly I know for a fact that I am extremely loyal and I believe my 11yr friendships that I have are proof of it, I'm a ride and die type of gal.

What I'm looking for in friends is someone who can be patient with me and is open to having new friends, and genuinely interested in trying to start a friendship with someone new. I’ve met quite a few people on here who already have their huge friend groups and because of it they don’t feel like they need to put effort into a new friendship with someone else because they already have friends that take care of that for them. I’m not saying that it's a bad thing but it does get frustrating and exhausting having to put in all the effort when you’re getting barebones in return for your effort. I tend to give back the same energy I receive so if you're giving off the vibe of disinterest, then you're going to get it back and our conversations are going to go nowhere real fast. I believe a friendship is a two way street: if you're just constantly giving everyone your attention and just being met with “yeah” “cool” “nothing much” then continuing to engage with the person is pointless. Lastly, I’m not looking for friendships that aren’t just for hitting up every great once in a while (or one and done type of scenarios), I would like to find something consistent and genuine. Someone that will reciprocate effort and time and is actually willing to engage rather than just be a friend to hang out with once in a while.

I like watching shows and I know of a lot of good ones. If you're somewhat interested I'll just have to find my long list I made in my notes that's hidden away somewhere. I'm currently planning to watch two anime and live action adaptations because my friend wants me to see them. I enjoy all kind of music and listen to it a lot - I mostly listen to musicals as they tend to give me the best inspiration when I'm writing stuff. Speaking of writing - I am also an aspiring writer, returning to the scene after a 10+ year gap. As of right now I am intensely working on a personal story of mine that has to do with dragons, fantasy, magic and sci-fi which I am thoroughly enjoying but also stressing out about because it’s hard work. I'm not really looking for RP partners right now but if you want to reach out and discuss stories in general I'm always down to do that. I love animals and have a lot of experience in working with them, mainly dogs and horses.

I'm a big gamer and I hope I find someone here that also enjoy the same things I do! I don't really enjoy shooter games though since I'm usually just cannon fodder in those ones, but am always willing to try out new things! However, survivals are my bread and butter and its been a long time since I've had someone to play any of all my survival games with - I've been feeling a bit nostalgic towards them, just had no one to play them with so I've never touched them. Some of the games I play are as follows:

Genshin Impact Honkai Star Rail Minecraft (Vanilla) State of Decay 2 7 Days to Die Red Dead Redemption 2 (PS4 & PC) Path of Titans (Really looking forward to getting back into this hopefully with a dinosquad) Destiny 2 Roblox Dying Light (1&2) Dead by Daylight (Forewarning: I don’t really play this one a lot anymore.) Palia Century: Age of Ashes Ark (I can’t play this one anymore due to computer restrictions, I don’t have space for it) Lethal Company Palworlds (Never tried it but I really want to play it just not on my own) Wuthering Waves The Isle And I’m really into animal survival games, I have a few of those but again never played them because being a solo player is hard