Why is math so hard bruh?

I’m a freshman, taking college algebra. I’m just wondering why the fuck is this shit so difficult? I write all the notes ALEKS provides for me. I follow the steps exactly how they show them.. and somehow the answers are still wrong. Like I’m just struggling so bad . Like I can’t retain no information I learn , no matter how many times I re read my notes I have. I feel like an embarrassment not being able to understand shit everyone else can do easily. No matter what I do I still feel like I haven’t learned anything.