Sorry papa and mummy
Bhai pata nahi kya ho raha mains mai 29s2 hai meri. Koi bol raha bohot tough aa rahi physics koi bol raha sirf formula based hai. Idk mere abhi ki halat is 140-160 and my last year halat was 120-130. So yeah I fked up pretty hard.
Mai bohot gand ghiske April attempt mai 200 le aaunga but abhi yeh baat dimag se jaa hi nahi rahi ki mai iit mai nahi ja paya. Mere papa ka kitna jyada sapna tha yrr unhone kabhi mujhe bola nahi but ab mujhe lag raha agar mai iit mai chale jata to papa mere sath wo iit k gate pe photo leke status lagate kitna khush hote. Papa ki shakal aa rahi chehre k samne. Rona aa raha. Zindagi bhar ab nit iiit ka tag rahega. Ik our path at 18 doesn't define who we become at 22. Mere bhaiya startup mai job karte hai aur uss start up ka ceo he is just 25 or 26 from a normal college in some city idk. But he's company already has a millon dollar funding. Like ik this is not end but. Getting into iit was the biggest gift I could have given to my parents.
April attempt mai 220+ le aaunga 250 ka attempt karunga and finally exam hall se khushi khusi bahar aakar car mai papa ko bataunga ki papa I am sorry I tried my best but iit nahi ho payega. I am fed up now. I will make sure to fullfill my parents every dream in life. Jee taught me something valuable.
Hanuman ji please mujhe shakti do Jai shree ram.
Koi agar mental health expert ho to please batao how do I stop this thoughts parents ki shakal nahi jaa rahi aakho k samne se aasu nahi Rukh rahe. Padhai ka precious time anxiety ki vajeh se waste ho raha.
Aur ha mujhe jyada regret nahi hai. Like tum log sochonge ki bakchodi ki hogi saal bhar. 11th k 10 mhine bakchodi ki thi bohot. 12th k 10 mhine jitni possible gand hai ghis di thi. Usse jyada nahi kar sakta tha aur 13th mai thoda lazy ho gaya tha. But Han like din raat series movies dekh raha hu aisa nahi. Padhta tha but bohot late realise hua ki bohot Kam speed se padh raha hu. Online drop for you.
Tldr: jan attempt fked April mai paka marks launga and then will apologise to papa . Mummy already knows my situation. I couldn't get better parents than this. I really wish mera koi chota bhai behen hota jo mere parents ka iit dream pura kar pata.