ANOTHER FAILURE STORY!!

I 19 ( F ) started my jee journey in 2022 after securing 90 percent in class 10 ( i know now even 90 in class 10 is average ) . so you can say i was an average or slightly above average kid .. from the dream of going to iit bomby .. to now feeling helpless ..

I never shared this with anyone but Now i cant keep it inside

I am a fucking failure .. the worst daughter for my parents .. I legit have the best parents out there and i am the worst .. why am i like this .. during 11th and 12th i did classes but still didnt revised or attempted question so ended up with pathetic percentile .. fucked class 12th boards with 68 percent .. ( i joined a dummy school the worst decision ) .. only had one friend throughout so used to chat with her like the whole day .. procrastination and just wasting time .. when i finally fucked up the year 2024 ( all the exams ) decided to take a drop and give improvement exam this year .. and the situation is still not the best .. but i dont know no matter how hard i try i cant do anything .. i have seen the lecture made the notes but i feel so underconfident .. i feel like i dont know anything .. i dont have much hopes left for this jee mains 1 so i am deciding to start preparing for the second session i will revise all that i have done and solve pyq .. and also give mocks test .. i will try my best to improve thank you .. and yes please dont be like me .. this hurts like hell .. dont disappoint your parents .. they do so much for you .. ( at this point i will just cry )

thank you for reading my rant ..

EDIT - thank you so much everyone for your kind words .. I know its my mistake and i accept it .. i just share this taaki man halka ho jaye there was a lot going inside .. and mujhe nhi pata tha itne kind log milenge and even similar .. guys now all we can do is study .. toh padhte h give our best to the april attempt .. and jo result hoga atleast vo hamari mehnat ka hoga