Failure

I am dropper who has taken drop by going against his family still my family supported me to take drop and told me to do my best they were opposing my decision because they have seen my struggle against study for the first time until 10th i was literally state rank holder multiple times in any exam I have given so I decided to go kota for 11 th and 12 th they also supported that I fucking work so hard that I was dreaming of questions still I barely qualified my jee mains because of my reservation then I thought now I know what was I lacking and if I worked on that I might clear jee and get into even though I did my best in 11 th and 12 th i always thought I was lacking something and I took drop I even worked my ass of in drop literally studying for 12 hours atleast per day for almost year and here I am scoring max 140 /300 in mains which are almost similar to my last attempt i have lost my hope of getting into iiit also there is nothing good happenings in my studies I am sure that I can't go into any iit nit or iiit even ,the thing is my family will still support me but I can't face them because it was my decision and yet here I am can't even clear jee after studying for 3 whole years ,I have very cool and chill parents who always supports me without taunting and all that shit. Idk what's going to happen with me but whatever happens I am going to loose self confidence i am just another failure who thought he can be IITian